Frustations

The fact that I am doing this..

That I compromised..

That I once thought I wouldn’t do auditing for the world..

And that I have to get out of this..

And that it doesn’t change the fact that I did this.

The fact that I just try not to think about those whom I can help..

That I am afraid to look them in the eye..

The fact that I didn’t even cry..

That I cant find a soothing word for them at least..

The fact that I get too busy..

That its not worth it..

The fact that I forget too soon..

But people have many ways of taking it..

The fact that my friends are not as well off..

And that I’ll never help them when they cant help themselves..

The fact that a new home comes with an age old baggage..

And that it may surface too late..

The fact that I don’t have the freedom to struggle..

That I am taking the easy way out not knowing whether I want to..

The fact that I cant think of anything for this blog..

That I had somehow lost that on the paths..

The fact that I came down to the level where I could say that..

The fact that things need changing..

That I must make the changing..

That I am not sure a bit..

A simple world isn’t there for the taking..

The fact that I have to make it happen..