Thursday, February 2, 2012

My Fucked up memory


Was driving on an empty road at 10 PM on my bike with two other strangers on my back. Gave them a ride in exchange for confirming that I was down the right lane. Didn’t have much space to work with, having to drag myself onto the petrol tank in order to accommodate them on that 10 min drive..

And while my instincts were taking care of the driving, my mind diverted from one thought to another on a random basis to finally come across the most beautiful one. Could remember the thought process before this particular thought came and the thought process after. But not this precise one! At that moment, For this one thought, I would have given the world. Lost it as soon as it was interrupted with those people asking me stop the bike so as to depart on other ways. And once it was lost, it was as if it escaped and hid in some unknown terrain of my brain away from my reach. I mean, having an amazing thought which brings about an auto-smile on your face one moment, and wondering what the hell that was the very next moment!  That can be annoying..

Can’t even remember the subject matter/ concept or whatever it is related to. The more I think about it, the more beautiful it seems to be, and the more beautiful it feels, the more I try to recollect it, retrieve it out of the blues..

Again on the hind sight, there is this risk that if and if at all that thought comes back to my senseless mind, it may not have been as gorgeous. What if it was just another random thought which I presumed awesome just because of its mysterious escapade? I’d rather not look back on it if this is the risk..